Mar 4, '08 9:40 PM
for Mina's contacts
It's been weeks since I found out that I could be part of the 5-year BS-MS CS program of DISCS, still, i haven't decided if i want to do it. My mom certainly thinks that I should, Kerry, on the other hand gave me very good reasons to think about this longer.
Truth is, I really wanted to do this ever since I've heard about it during the 2005 ORSEM, but being a CS student for three years made me realize how much I loath (oo na, exagg) most of the DISCS faculty. Sure, instructors like Paolo Agloro or David Diy are there... I could even do with Jeff Jongco. But taking 6 units under our 162 teacher ruined my whole education on computers. Also, defending a perfectly good project from our 122 and 123 teachers made me think that I would really hate this business. "Sell myself" my ass.
Anyway, I realized this isn't the time to turn back and shift into ECE or ID... even more, shift into Psy or Eco... much more, to file an application to UP or UST to study architecture. I should just get good at this CS things! If I could be so good that I don't have to "sell" my work so people would want to use them, I could prove 123 wrong and I could have an easy life. As Donna, said this tactic will be a "delay of gratification". If I study one more year, my - what Jay-r would call - "time to get rich" would take a year longer than my batchmates but I could be richer faster. Wow. What a plan!
so, to become CS-ey, i should:
- learn C! any suggestions kung paano?
- make the best website for ASPC!
- redo and understand every major CS project by myself.
- join something along the line of Blue Blade.
- Or, I could join the JVP and do something more worthwhile and less selfish. Kaya ko kaya? Hahaha!
I, however, am leaning more towards another reason to go for the 5-year program.
Thinking about my 20th birthday, as it comes nearer and nearer, gives me this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. A feeling that goes up to my chest and lodges itself at my throat.
Obviously, taking the BS-MS program will let me hold on to being a student. Being a student means having no real care all. Any mistakes we might make does not really have anything to do with the real world, right? To me, being a student means making-tambay during breaks, cramming on hell weeks, taking philo orals with Sir Roy, cutting, going to the area for whatever, meeting my freshies, passive checking-out, active checking-out, everything #2 related, watching UAAP games, playing basketball in the IAC and the ABL, training at the cov courts, drinking at Drew's, coordinating class schedules, saving tables at the caf up, trying to connect to the LS wifi, YM-ing, BitTorrenting The L Word's latest episode, shooting for a cause which usually involves Kerry, eating flattened burgers with Tanya and burger and fries sandwiches with Geli and stealing kuluntoy fries from everyone at Mcdo after training, making-sabay with Ginny in her Ipis or THA 587, watching Nikki's puppet productions if I miss eating with them, making time to have meals with Iris or bEBi or Claire, etc.
I hate growing up. It's something I find as hard to do as dancing to a beat. Kara's YM stat said something like how now, we are the grown ups and it's time we decided what that means. Maybe I should just hope and believe that that can actually happen.
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